Lorelei

Circling the drain, on the way out
climbing into comfortable is dying out loud
centering selfishness while others are hovered around
a higher bliss achieved on a lower ground

silent sitting subconscious with palms on the earth
spirit surrounding me I don't see god in a church
flying words singing birds, living temporary nest
Iv'e dreamt what I could be but Iv'e never seen my best

unproductive unimpressed, pretty ugly beauty mess
recovering what beauty's left
good reminders do forget, so remind me once again
good reminders do forget, so remind me once again

remember the pattern because all the habits you have are just wanting to stay
busy collecting the waste thats taking up space that ought to be thrown away
keeping the sickness inside of your system, you know that it's rotting your brain
causing confusion, you were abused you keep on abusing, pointing a finger at others to blame

wondering why you're afraid of commitment
and tempted to never change
the life of shame you wish never existed
death to the difference between you and me we are both
a rough draft and a mental note
talking soft with a gentle tone

will only open up a clearer sense of home
conscious conversation makes the human glow
truth be known, when I listened to the world I heard
every note that she wrote; she told me:

invite the sunshine into your day
the plant foods to the plate
awareness to see the pain
stop hiding behind the stage

it's time to show up
give it my best & let go of blame
skin shedding snake
to rise from the foggy sleep
eyes open wide awake

circling the drain, living for now
giving up the things that are bringing me down
circling the drain, on the way out
talking to myself with no one around